going from bad to worse
Well my weekend plans are shot. Not only am I going with my father to Sams Club to buy food, but I'm also going to dinner with my parents and uncle and going to a family reunion on Sunday to meet a side of the family I have little to no idea whom anyone is. Fun times indeed!Really though that the furthest thing from my mind. I've already told most everyone that needs to know but for anyone else reading, I was diagnosed with Diabetes today. The Doctor had informed me that my blood sugar levels 2 weeks ago were 328 (a healthy person is supposed to be between 90-110) and then they checked it today and it was 364 (but I had only eaten about 30 minutes prior so that could've been why it was higher). I was given a perscription for Fortamet once a day along with Nexium for problems with my stomach. Also I was given a testing kit to test my own blood every morning. This part freaks me out the most as I have the most unhealthy fear or needles and blood out of anyone you'll ever meet. I can't stand the sight of either one and now not only do I have to deal with it, I have to do this procedure to myself, EVERYDAY..ugh!.
The first thing everyone seems to want to say when they find out is "Im sorry" but really theres nothing you have to be sorry about. I came to terms a long time ago that this was going to happen. It's not as if this is some kind of startling revalation considering my mother has been diagnosed with it for years and I'm not exactly the most physically fit person on the planet. I may not have thought this early in my life but as the doctor told me today, it's early and can be easily managed through diet and exercise which to me, along with getting over my fear of needles and blood, is going to be the biggest challenge in front of me. If ever there was a motivating factor in my goal towards living a healthier lifestyle, this certainly would be the case.
Food is my biggest weakness, I guess what I'm thinking is rather saying you feel sorry for me, I would rather have everyones help and understanding in not pressuring me into choices that are going to affect my health negatively, not as if its your fault if I eat something bad, but just keep it in mind as your eating ice cream in front of me. haha. The real intention of this is swirling in my head but I'm just having a difficult time putting it in type that can be understood. I'd hope most of you would understand what Im saying here.
Anyway, getting back to something less depressing, Chris and I went to see Click tonight which I hadn't originally intended to go see but was really the only thing out besides Cars and Xmen 3. I will say that it certainly was not the movie that is being advertised on television. It goes from comedy to drama and back to comedy again. Adam Sandler was really not that bad in the movie when he's been so dreadful is just about everything else in at least the past 4 or 5 years. Maybe it was Christopher Walken which helped it along, yeah, thats gotta be it.
Fuck! 3am already?! I should really get some sleep.
posted by lojus @ 2:37 AM
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